You know that fat kid that always got picked on in school?

Its funny, apabila aku teringatkan zaman kanak-kanak aku dulu. Lucu. Lucu bukan sebab aku jenis yang suka buat lawak, people who knew me back then would certainly know this. Seingat aku dulu, aku bukan jenis yang selesa berjenaka, dan tak tahu selok belok untuk membuat lawak2 spontan. Aku rasa aku juga tak reti membuat kawan, sebab seingat aku masa skolah rendah, rakan-rakan aku tak ramai.
Aku hanya punyai seorang rakan baik semasa aku darjah 5 & 6. Budak berketurunan India, devout Christian, bernama Joseph. Kenal pun kerana dia duduk di meja sebelah, kalau tidak, entah kenal nama pun tidak.

and in case u were wondering.

Yeah, i was always the loser fat kid that people would pick on, and my childhood days were cold and lonely.

Aku ingat, aku bukan budak popular di sekolah rendah. Tak hairanlah, pabila aku jumpa orang-orangan di UTP ini yang pernah satu skolah rendah dengan aku dulu, kelas sebelah lagi, mereka tak ingat aku. sedih bukan? well, i dont blame them, my primary school years were...well...sh*tty, and i have a personal grudge against this one teacher of mine.grrr....

that aside..

Sepanjang hidup aku sekolah rendah, dan separuh masa aku di alam sekolah menengah, aku hanya ditemani buku-buku. Lepas sekolah, masa apabila rakan-rakan lain bergegas mahu pulang, aku akan melangkah ke library. Baca majalah, dan akan tengok di rak "Latest arrivals" untuk judul2 buku yang menarik. Library di sekolah aku masa itu, St Mary's, memang heaven aku masa lepas sekolah. its was my fortress, and it was there i was in my zone.

Yeah, the life i lead back then was a boring bookworm one.(-_-!!)

Aku ke sekolah menaiki tren, dan pulang berjalan kaki. The routine was so much so revolved around books, yang aku akan membaca sambil berjalan. My feet were so familiar with the route home, that i don't need my eyes to see where i'm going. Only the occasional glance now and then to make sure i dont walk into any traffic, and that's about it.

Aku ingat lagi, tahun 2000 kalau tak silap, aku bawa pulang buku Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban. Mrs Gurmeet (librarian) kata she just got the book, and wondered if i would like to have a go at it first.
Aku ingat, ayah aku lihat aku berguling di atas sofa, membaca buku si Harry itu.
He took a look at the cover, which at the time had only childish illustrations, and asked me what on earth was i reading,. Iwas prompted to put it away, and go to bed.

That was so many years ago, so so many years. And it has been a while since i snug myself into a good book. Sekarang aku tak punyai masa untuk melayan fantasi, melayan bahan bacaan kecuali yang berkaitan nombor2 kejuruteraan.

Now, at 22, still chubby, i find that i miss reading. However, i think i've met some of the most interesting people within this last few years. So hey, i dont read that much anymore, but at least i have more people around me now, who i hope, i can call friends.

aww, nice huh? huhu~

there's more to come btw, when i feel like writing.

and oh, de ja vu...i think ive written about this some time ago...;p